irritated

ok. i am super duper irritated with myself now..!! my bus card is at eve's hosue. the blur me left it there. got games day tml.. and i am seriously really literally dragging myself there.. i am really caught in a spot. really pray that i would be able to interact well with the Primers. its always a fear.. ppl join CCAs with their frens.. all got cliques and all.. my so called clique?? eve.loke??? or are they even called cliques.. after all they are officers.. so its jus different. it has always been a struggle to communicate with the Primers... i duno why.. sometimes i question.. is this the place for me? is this the place God wans me to serve? i know the ans is YES.. but i really dunn see myself there yet.. i really want to break that barrier with the Primers.. now so many of them went HT trip.. relationships all formed le.. its even harder...... why cant i go for HT???? it jus makes things even harderrrrr.. nvm, i believe somehow its God's plan..
fighter+
i will this race+